AN ENIGMATIC AND POIGNANT JOURNEY AROUND MY AGEING AND EVOLVING MOTHER! PART 100.

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Recently I heard my dear mother telling someone that she is not afraid of her 'nocturnal visitors. 

Which is good, as it could suggests that she is not fearing that they are going to hurt her. 

Alternatively, it could be an indication of her feeling safe, now, as opposed to when she is experiencing the nocturnal events. 

Either way and for whatever reasons she disclosed her absence of fear. Whether she was being truthful or simply saying what she thought was the right thing to say, it was good to hear it.  

As I endeavour to better understand and work more appropriately with my dear mother.




But such rewarding clarity of understanding are not the norm in the relationship my mother and me now share. 

The anxieties that are troubling are, it seems, constantly bubbling in her mind, in her consciousness. 

She does not seem able to relax for any length of time. Yes, she can be passive, but, smiles and signs of pleasure, of perceiving fun and being humorous, are hard to come by for my mother. 

Even though she does not have to go out to work anymore. Even though the responsibility for any housework, is no longer hers. 

Except for when she chooses to make it so. Probably for reasons such as her dissatisfaction with when or how this work or aspects of it is being done.

Even though she can afford to have some items of luxury, if she so desires.

To be continued!






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