AN ENIGMATIC AND POIGNANT JOURNEY AROUND MY AGEING AND EVOLVING MOTHER! PART 139.

 

Which also probably is further confirmation that she is not always comprehending what is being said or said to her. 

This can be deduced from the manner in which I saw her examining her bedside lamp, recently. 

My dear mother takes up the lamp and help it in her hand, keenly scrutinising it as she turns it in her hand. 

The impression I, and doubtlessly others would, got from her close examination of the lamb is that it is the first time she is seeing. Thus her noticeable curiosity. 

However, that is far from being the case, as my mother has had this lamp on her little bedside chest of drawers for atleast 2 years now.

 

Seemingly, she has forgotten this fact, and is now looking at the lamp, not only as if she has never seen it before, but as if she does not understand how and why it functions. 

She has also taken to recalling that her eldest daughter has been asking her to look after her children. 

Something which could make sense, except that all of her daughter's children are now adults who have their own children. 

But all of this becomes clear to the initiated; those who know of my dear mother's childhood. 

Of how, based on her own story or account, her parents and atleast on of her older siblings, used to use her to care for her younger siblings, and some of her nieces and nephews. 

This is something which has caused my dear mother long-standing pain and upset.  

And now that her psychological state is no longer as efficient and effective at controlling her mental management of painful and traumatic experiences as it had been in the past. 

To be continued!